I was moody, snappish, suffering from insomnia due to moody thoughts, having dizzy spells...

Turns out it was all due to PMS.

I'm having cold hands and feet now, with my heart beating faster than normal whilst trying to complete studio work for tomorrow.
I'm not even sure why but when in doubt, blame PMS.

For safety purposes..the lastest entry below is open to friends only. :)

I've been reading Amy Tan's The Hundred Secret Senses...I haven't been enjoying a book in a LONG while!

This semester is delightfully slack.

~~~

She was right behind him,
but he couldn't see her.
She called out his name,
but he couldn't hear her.
"Where is she?", he said.
"Behind you." (I'm here)
the little bird said.
(And always been these years)

It's 6am and I'm still awake supposedly doing last minute work and I can't concentrate!

After a mere few SECONDS of clicking around my legitimate work space, I'd veer off to check out fashion blogs and random pages (e.g. reading the synopsis of Great Expectations on Wiki for who knows what reason).

Seriously I can't concentrate past a few seconds or minutes whilst doing work whereas I can spend hours on mindless surfing.

Yes...so this led me to suspect that I may have Adult Attention Deficit Disorder (thus I might have a legitimate excuse for my severe inefficiency)...

I looked up the symptoms and identified those which applied to me....

• An internal sense of anxiety
• Impulsive spending habits 
• Frequent distractions during sex
• Frequently misplace the car keys, your purse or wallet or other day-to-day items
• Lack of attention to detail
• Family history of ADD, learning problems, mood disorders or substance abuse problems
• Trouble following the proper channels or chain of commands
• An attitude of "read the directions when all else fails"
• Frequent traffic violations
• Impulsive job changes
• Trouble maintaining an organized work and/or home environment
• Chronically late or always in a hurry
• Frequently overwhelmed by tasks of daily living
• Poor financial management and frequent late bills
• Procrastination
• Spending excessive time at work due to inefficiencies
• Inconsistent work performance
• Sense of underachievement
• Frequent mood swings
• Trouble sustaining friendships or intimate relationships
• A need to seek high stimulation activities
• Tendency toward exaggerated outbursts
• Transposing numbers, letters, words
• Tendency toward being argumentative
• Addictive personality toward food, alcohol, drugs, work and/or gambling
• Tendency to worry needlessly and endlessly
• "Thin-skinned" - having quick or exaggerated responses to real or imagined slights

...but maybe it's just telling me that I'm a super-lazy shopaholic cum glutton with poor time management.
 :(

My little brother scored 43/45 for his IB exam!!!

I was really happy for him...more so then when I got my own results (okay granted I've never scored excellent results for any major exam)...

Well it's good because he now has unlimited (almost) choices of the courses he wants...you know it sucks when you want to study something but you can't because your grades don't make the cut. It also sucks that in most cases grades matter more than passion. Okay I realise I sound quite disgruntled here but it's nothing personal haha...anyway back to the subject..

Congratulations, Lamb! ;D


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Okay so I came back from a 2 week holiday in Japan (Tokyo/Kyoto/Osaka)+Korea and a 2 week study trip in Vietnam (Hanoi/Hue/Ho Chi Minh)...
I feel like I haven't rested enough!!
Japan was great...I now favour Japan more than Korea and I've been branded a traitor by my Korean friend.




Well if both countries are full of byuntaes and if I were to meet one...I'd rather meet a handsome one, RIGHT?



~~~

I forgot...its 2010 now..
I was counting down in -17 deg weather at Yong Pyong Ski Resort's countdown "party" with my fingers almost frozen off!



This year...my resolutions are:

I'd never thought I would say this...

but I'm really enjoying my 4th year in architecture now despite how busy I am.

All the late nights and stay-overs in school almost everyday..
Eating Macs for supper...
Getting hyper due to lack of sleep...

I'm doing what I ought to have been doing since year 1 and finally I feel quite comfortable being in school
and a bit more a of true archi student now.
I'm also learning a few things this sem..
It's really much better designing as a group and learning from one another...

But I'm still not sure if I want to be an architect in the future, haha.

Sometimes I  could strangle my super "babo" (foolish) Korean guy friend, Chang, in exasperation...and I mean this in the nicest way possible, haha.


WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
chang
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
i need your help!!!
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
do you have information on SI HE YUAN?
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
hahaha

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
who is she?

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
-_____-

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
why do u need her infrom?

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
si he yuan!!!   (the Koreans studied this when we were in Korea and they know the Chinese pronunciation of it, or so I assumed)
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
the chinese courtyard house   
(after mentioning this, I assume he was just kidding me when he insisted he didn't know so I played along a little)
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
-___-

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
i dont know who she is
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
can u tell me abt her more?

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
JUK EUL LAE!
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
??
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
-____-
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
si he yuan...has long hair...big eyes...square face..with trees on her head...remember her??

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
sorry
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
i have no idea
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
is she architect?

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
are you for real?
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
you know that chinese courtyard house
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
you and junyoung made a model of?
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
and jeeseon cadded?
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
that's called "SI HE YUAN"
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
in chinese

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
haha
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
of course i dont know

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
i wanna kill u

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
i haven't
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
studyed
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
studied
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
chinese
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
for my lifetime

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
but many koreans know

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
that is sa hap won

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
SA HAP WON
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
okok
허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
ok
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
SA HAP WON

허창 ( /선물/ ) says :
just a sec

WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
you mean you truly didn't know what I was talking about?
WHYETSINPEIMELISSA ( melissa [고기 주세요~] ) says :
OMG

At times, I'm reminded of how much more adept I am at being a good friend rather than being a filial daughter.

I'm more used to having my mother care for me than me having to care for my mother

and when she falls ill,
I am at a loss as for what to do. 

The bicycle rental uncle is charging me $74* for his worker's OT pay and overnight rental charge.

I'm blacklisting that shop instead.



*originally $90 before my friend bargained for me.

I should be off to bed but suddenly I feel emo. -_______-

A mix of emotions...

1_
Traumatised by the East Coast bicycle rental shop uncle.
I rented a bicycle and I forgot to return it till it was way past their closing time.
Saw my name on a notice written with poor grammar outside the shop.

Whye Tsin Pei
You are late! (the handwriting was terrible so I thought he spelt "hate" at first and I got a shock")
You have to return
the bicycle tomorrow
or we will report lost.

with love,
bicycle rental uncle
9*******

I kid about the sign-off but he did leave a number so I called him back.
I don't live in east coast!! What on earth do I do with the bicycle now!?!

Me: Hello uncle, I'm sorry I forgot to return the bike!!
Uncle: YEA! It's too late you know! It's 11pm now, we closed shop long ago! We cannot do anything now!
Me: So what do I do with the bike now?
Uncle: You have to return it tomorrow!!
Me: But I don't live in East Coast! How??
Uncle: I DON'T KNOW! We waited till 9pm for you, you know!
Me: Sorry...I was at a BBQ pit nearby *meek voice
Uncle: CANNOT BE! I sent my men to look for you! They cannot find you, you know!!!
Me: Er...okay then. *resigned
Uncle: ....

Thank goodness one of my friends live nearby so he'd bring the bicycle back for me tomorrow.
I think I just got myself blacklisted from the shop.
It was entirely my fault but I couldn't help feeling a little shaken (yea timid) by this incident.
Hey, he has MEN working under him okay?

I don't know why but he didn't keep my IC. (Is it illegal to retain someone's IC?)
Lirong said he probably trusted me because I look like an innocent little girl.
I guess that trust is broken now.
 

2_
School's starting soon.
I have to ballot for my tutor and I just can't fill in my 4th choice.
There are 6 candidates and I've filled in 3.
Basically I have to pick the lesser of 3 evils for the last choice but I don't know who that is exactly.

One tutor warned that his studio is going to be "traumatising" and that he wants students to fully experience the site (which is going to be NUS) by rolling on the NUS greens, climbing NUS trees and smelling the plants.
Yes, I guess that makes him the most evil.

Now I pick the lesser of 2 evils.



3_
I'm really really worried about the next semester.
I barely survived the last semester...how do I deal with the next?
I'm going on year 4 whereas in terms of standard I think I'm only year 2?
Why is architecture school so demoralising?
I think I'm really lacking passion and aptitude for this subject (yet I manage to pass every sem).
I feel sad because I do want to do it well but I just don't get it.
I feel lost because if this is not my calling then what is?




4_
Why are some people so complicated and hard to read?
I'm scared of such people.



SIGH.